Have you ever longed for something so much that when it actually happens you have no idea how to process it!? That happened to me this past month. One of my goals for this year was to do a trip for ME! I needed to be selfish for once and for me being selfish is NOT a negative thing. When you're a mom, sister, daughter, business woman and wife you tend to do for others and put yourself last...and that's just what I did. But not this time. I put myself first for once and invested in the Do More Wear Less photography workshop in Florida. It was everything I wanted and everything I didn't know I needed. Not only did they touch on photography but they touched a part of my life that I didn't know existed. The workshop was held at my friend Jana's studio in St. Augusitine and turned out to be a dream. Animals, family and a gorgeous "dark and moody" studio setting was all I needed to reconnect to myself. I learned that I'm talented, capable of my dreams and they (meaning the instructors Brianna and Ewan) gave me the confidence I always wanted as a business PERSON...not business woman, because that would be silly. There were women and men at this event that learned just as much as I did and some that didn't, but that's ok. People asked me, "What did you learn?" and it wasn't about that for me. I learned about love, life and confidence. Things I thought I had lost along the way. To be around such great minds totally blew mine, that I came home and couldn't deal. I had to take more time for me to process it all. I literally thought I was going crazy with how much I learned about myself so I took 2 more weeks away from everyone to process my life. Two weeks away from my business, my phone and my family because I NEEDED to. I never understood how I could do that but I did...and I did it for ME. I knew the business could wait, I knew my phone wasn't important and I knew my family would understand. Although I couldn't put into words how I was feeling, I knew I had to decompress. It was refreshing. It made me realize that all I needed was sitting here right at home the whole time. I had a husband that was compassionate and loved ME so fiercely. I knew I had amazing kids that didn't understand but did. I had family that has always been there but I didn't see it until now. There were so many people contacting me that it scared me. Did people really miss me that much? Am I that lovable? Damn straight I am.
As I told many people that I met along the way, we all have darkness. We all feel pain. How we process that pain is different, but it's ok. We're all light as well. How much lightness do you show to people? If you have lightness, how will you shine that on others who are feeling dark? THAT'S what I learned. I can be light and I can be dark, but it's how I shine my light on others that's important. Things I learned from that experience are priceless...and I hope you get to experience that one day, because it's PRICELESS. So thank you everybody that understands. You're my people and you're a 10!
Now, let me introduce you to my dark side...
Do more of what makes YOU happy.